Showing posts with label music. Show all posts
Showing posts with label music. Show all posts
Saturday, 27 August 2016
keep trying
I don't think I will ever get a job and I feel sad. When I take a step outta my own skin and look through maturer eyes, I just feel useless. I could easily conform and be grateful for whatever shit job some bastard will hire me to do. But I have decided not to compromise anymore, I will not spiral into another depression because I can't be myself. I can't keep blaming other people for my problems, I will always be the problem. I can sit inside my own four walls forever, with my books and films. And tragic singer songwriters but I long to be a real person. To have a physical presence in our world, I like all of us feel I have something unique to offer. Whether that be writing, songs or whatever. I just hope my efforts aren't in vain. I wish someone had the answers and could put their hand on my shoulder and just say, Ben all will be well soon, this pain you feel, It is going to be worth it in the long run. So keep reading, keep writing and don't stop dreaming. Because one day you'll be old. And life will be over, so keep believing.
Sunday, 21 August 2016
night time brings out the loneliness in people
night time, restless, depressed or can’t sleep.
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Sunday, 14 August 2016
See A Little Light
Being a vegetarian is easy when you live off sugary breakfast cereals, toast and chips(fries to you Americans).
But I have been getting increasingly unfit, being out of work and living off less than nourishing sugary/fatty foods. So I've pushed myself these last few days to get back into walking more, running and exercise with a ban on cheese and beer :( I have been trying to motivate myself with reading great Morrissey quotes from his old interviews. And it reminds me why I became a Vegetarian in the first place, to better myself and be more aware of what and whom I shouldn't be eating.
Last night I watched Drive. I'd heard great things about this film and regard Ryan Gosling (the king of independent films) as one of this century's most talented actors. I was blown away, I felt instantly gripping by the cool California night getaway scene. And a killer soundtrack featuring Daft Punk. Combined with a great director, all star cameos (Bryan Cranston, Oscar Issac) It had the feel of all the great action/thriller films from the 80's, with none of the silliness.. Drive is just a refreshing, clever film. (Even though I'm a few years late to the party).
I've been revisiting the Sugar/Bob Mould albums recently. I really enjoyed his autobiography See A Little Light' some months ago, and now find going through his back catalogue all the more rewarding and inspiring. It's so rare to find an artist that can rock out so hard, and deliver stirring heartfelt lyricism. His latest album I was turned onto via the Ryan Adams/Bob Mould interview on NPR. And the song Hold On' Is a triumph and could slot onto any of his greatest albums. If you've never listened to Bob Mould I suggest you do as you will find a man that has been creating consistently great music for over three decades.
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But I have been getting increasingly unfit, being out of work and living off less than nourishing sugary/fatty foods. So I've pushed myself these last few days to get back into walking more, running and exercise with a ban on cheese and beer :( I have been trying to motivate myself with reading great Morrissey quotes from his old interviews. And it reminds me why I became a Vegetarian in the first place, to better myself and be more aware of what and whom I shouldn't be eating.
Last night I watched Drive. I'd heard great things about this film and regard Ryan Gosling (the king of independent films) as one of this century's most talented actors. I was blown away, I felt instantly gripping by the cool California night getaway scene. And a killer soundtrack featuring Daft Punk. Combined with a great director, all star cameos (Bryan Cranston, Oscar Issac) It had the feel of all the great action/thriller films from the 80's, with none of the silliness.. Drive is just a refreshing, clever film. (Even though I'm a few years late to the party).
I've been revisiting the Sugar/Bob Mould albums recently. I really enjoyed his autobiography See A Little Light' some months ago, and now find going through his back catalogue all the more rewarding and inspiring. It's so rare to find an artist that can rock out so hard, and deliver stirring heartfelt lyricism. His latest album I was turned onto via the Ryan Adams/Bob Mould interview on NPR. And the song Hold On' Is a triumph and could slot onto any of his greatest albums. If you've never listened to Bob Mould I suggest you do as you will find a man that has been creating consistently great music for over three decades.
Tumblr - http://considermelost.tumblr.com/
Spotify - Benstewartr
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