See A Little Light

Being a vegetarian is easy when you live off sugary breakfast cereals, toast and chips(fries to you Americans).
But I have been getting increasingly unfit, being out of work and living off less than nourishing sugary/fatty foods. So I've pushed myself these last few days to get back into walking more, running and exercise with a ban on cheese and beer :( I have been trying to motivate myself with reading great Morrissey quotes from his old interviews. And it reminds me why I became a Vegetarian in the first place, to better myself and be more aware of what and whom I shouldn't be eating.

Last night I watched Drive. I'd heard great things about this film and regard Ryan Gosling (the king of independent films) as one of this century's most talented actors. I was blown away, I felt instantly gripping by the cool California night getaway scene. And a killer soundtrack featuring Daft Punk. Combined with a great director, all star cameos (Bryan Cranston, Oscar Issac) It had the feel of all the great action/thriller films from the 80's, with none of the silliness.. Drive is just a refreshing, clever film. (Even though I'm a few years late to the party).

I've been revisiting the Sugar/Bob Mould albums recently. I really enjoyed his autobiography See A Little Light' some months ago, and now find going through his back catalogue all the more rewarding and inspiring. It's so rare to find an artist that can rock out so hard, and deliver stirring heartfelt lyricism. His latest album I was turned onto via the Ryan Adams/Bob Mould interview on NPR. And the song Hold On' Is a triumph and could slot onto any of his greatest albums. If you've never listened to Bob Mould I suggest you do as you will find a man that has been creating consistently great music for over three decades.

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playlist#1

WildMind playlist #1 - Blood Meridian

Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers - Breakdown
Aphex Twins - Avril 14th
Cass McCombs - Pleasant Shadow Song
Steve Gunn - Ancient Jules
Kurt Vile - Wheelhouse
Elliott Smith - Going Nowhere
Angel Olsen - White Fire
Radiohead - Kid A
DIIV - Yr Not Far
Warpaint - Love Is To Die
Marika Hackman - Skin
Sun Kil Moon - Unlit Hallway
Bob Mould - Hold On

My playlists will be a eclectic mix of new/old indie rock,classic rock, alternative country, folk, lo-fi indie and much more of the weird and wonderful music I happen to discover.

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Introducing

This is my first blog post in a few years. I started a blog when I left school and was coming out of a bad relationship. Now I hope this blog can be a positive outlet for another turbulent time in my life.

I have been out of work now for a couple of months. I was working in a coffee shop, which was an okay job. I had to leave as I was having panic attacks, so bad that each day was a new hell. I have always had pretty terrible social anxiety. I hate being in big crowds, unfortunately I live in a busy seaside town so there is no escape. I do miss the winter as the town is deserted and so are the beaches, I love nothing more than to walk on a icy cold day here in england.

I'd describe myself as being quite restless. I'm never really to content doing one thing for too long. I like to move on fast. I haven't been out of work since my early teens. I've always had the odd job, whether that be part time or full time. So really this is the first break I've had in a long time.
I'm always reading, researching or writing in some form. My biggest influences are those of the beat movement, Burroughs, Kerouac, Bukowski, Fante. I love the down and out tales, the never say die attitude and grit, living in shit and just scraping by. It seems a world away from the luxuries and accessories we all consume today.

This first post has been a brief introduction to me, I will probably post daily content that will include book/film reviews, playlists, gig reviews and just my daily activities. If you'd like to know more about me, check out my tumblr        http://considermelost.tumblr.com/

Ben